First of all I'd like to thank you for coming by my little blog. Well, it seems like there's another boring blog for you to read, but trust me I've put my heart into it. And I'll do my best to write decent blog posts (or at least something clear enough to read).
Talking about writing, I can't believe I finally start posting something on my blog. Actually, I created this blog a long time ago, but I left it unattended. Paradoxically, the more I tried to post something on my blog, the less enthusiastic I got. And my purpose of creating this blog was actually to help me improve my writing. I intended this blog to be a substitute for diaries.
I want to be level with you that I'm not really into writing. I find it difficult even more difficult than taming my mom's anger. Besides, I have a lot of bad experiences with it. As a college student of course I have to do a bunch of writing assignments. And every time my lecturers announce at the beginning of the semester that I'll have to write scholarly papers, all of a sudden that dim and gruesome pictures overwhelm me. It's just like a nightmare. I can't imagine having to sit for hours in front of my laptop. I'm not exaggerating, but I always get this tingling sensation in my head every time I write.
I don't have any animosity towards writing, but I just think that I'm not really good at it. One of the reasons why I think so is that I'm not good at it. I don't know what to write. My brain feels numb and my hands shiver. Moreover, I always feel nervous when the due date is approaching. It's so frustrating to know my friends, who start the writing later than me, have already finished their writing assignments. Even those who start writing a day before the due date can finish their assignments in no more than eight hours. While for me, even though I start the writing weeks before the due date, I am still struggling with my paper. Even, often times, I have to stay up until the next morning.
Despite the heart-rendering true story, my papers always turn out well. That seems magical to me because for me my papers don't deserve high scores. I'm not saying that I don't deserve those A's, though, for I think this success is due to my efforts and determination, and luck (which contributes 99.9%).
However, now I have come to the realization that I should start to love writing. Especially after one of my lecturers explain the benefits I can reap from it. He said that by writing we can reflect on what we've learned and make it last longer in our memory. Then I started to think that perhaps that's the reason why I don't get the most out of what I've read. So, it is my lecturer who has provided me a spark of interest in writing. It is just the same feeling I got when my English teacher in middle school washed away my hatred for English, and it turns out that now I become an English major. So who knows that I can be a writer in the future, even though it seems impossible to tell from this post. But, I'm sure that by keeping on writing I can produce a finely honed piece of writing.
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